The Fountain of Thin

Let me go on record as saying that losing a crap load of weight is and is not mind boggling.  People have lots of questions about howe to lose weight and I honestly believe they expect me to share an epiphany of answers and I have to tell you - the answers are not all that life GIANT.  At least not to me.  Maybe it is better explained this way...

I began a serious lifestyle of yo-yo dieting after my father passed away in 1996.  I used this method of weight loss and gain as a means to push the severity of the pain way down.  I tried again and again to break the cycle.  I put myself through so many fad diets to help me lose the weight. I would see people having so much success and I wanted that success- what is your seceret I would ask people over and over and over again.  I wanted the secret to losing weight and keeping it off.  I wanted the knoweldge that they had to rub off on me. 

No more questioning - how are people really losing the weight?  Well, a number of them have also had gastric byapss.  Onyl, they have kept quiet about it.  When others have asked how they have lost the weight, they have responded with statements such as, "I workout a lot" or "I don't eat sugar anymore."  I respect everyone's choice, but I believe that there are unintentional consequences that are felt by the people who are still seeking the Fountain of Thin.

So, the big question people have now....

How do I feel?  I don't feel much different than I did before with a couple of exceptions... my knees no longer ache after I run and I can walk down the stairs easier in heels - no more booming clomps.  DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU HAVE AN ISSUE WITH POTTY TALK!  I pee differently.  Women pee in packs, this is a given.  When I used to pee I would just sit down and pee - never thought anything of it.  When my skinny g-friends peed they all turned their knees inward and I had no idea why.  I thought maybe they were just hiding their goods or trying to not fall onto the gross bar bathroom floor.....  Now, I know.  Seriously, I know this is weird but continue to go with it.  I have learned that when thin women pee they have to close their knees or the pee streams up and over the toilet.  I did learn this one morning when I sat to pee and found myself with a mess.

Honestly, to tell the truth, it is more of a question about how others feel.  I am who I am whether it be big or small.

Evidence of this honesty-

1.  The dads at daycare keep staring at me, literally following me with their eyes, which is highly annoying but I believe that the fascination will wear off.  Either that or Lilly will grow up and not require daycare any longer.

2.  I am the recipient of unsolicited assistance at stores.

3.  Doors are being held open for me.

4.  People are just genuinely kinder to me demonstrating more patience and compassion. 


So, how do I really feel?  I am living.  For the first time ever I am living my life.  I am living my life not worried about how I look or how others preceive me.  In fact, I am flying to  Las Vegas  and I am going to bungee sling shot off the side of a casino just because I can.  Nothing says freedom like weightlessness 100s of stories off the ground.

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